The realization hits me. It tears at my soul and drops my countenance to the floor. I begin to sob.

Could it be true? Do I truly believe I am worthy of nothing? I don’t deserve to be served. To even sit if someone in the room is in need of anything from me. Why can’t I shut down? To be served sexually sends my mind reeling instead of into ecstasy. I can only focus to make you cum but I cannot let go to allow me to.

This is no way to live. I crave touch and my body desires orgasm.

The narrative deep at my core must change. Help me. Help me to let go with you. Take my body and make it yours to devour. Entrench my mind in pain and pleasure that doesn’t allow it a moment to think.

Help me feel safe and then abuse me. Use me as a doll until I have no mind left and all I am is an object for you to desire. Tie me up and blindfold me as you place a gag in my mouth. No longer allowed to move or see or speak. I am nothing. Make me nothing and fuck me as if I am only holes to you.

Then let me cry and hold me and show me that I am everything. That I am worthy of your effort and of your kindness. Show me I am worthy of receiving and enjoying it as much as I enjoy giving.

Bring another woman in your bed and please her in front of me. Tie me up and make me watch so I know my place. Then let me loose so I can punish her for ever thinking she could be yours. Tie her up and make her watch us as you claim me as yours and allow me to claim you as mine. Cumming for only me because I am the only woman worthy of you.

Take me out and show me off. Put a collar around my neck with a lock as you hold the only key. Tie a leash to it and take me around as your trophy. Make me spread my legs in front of a crowd as your fingers explore between my legs. Allowing everyone to see me squirt as your fingers enter deep inside of me. Own me fully and make me do whatever pleases you as they all watch or join in at your discretion.

And then take me home and treasure me as someone who is loved. Give me all the things I have never allowed anyone to give me and when I say no remind me that you own me and I am to obey. Knowing my place I let you in as I’ve never let anyone in before.

Cared for and loved we serve one another.